The tower in the picture is from my Irish homeland in Connemara.  It reminds me of my heritage.  It is where I am from.  It is who I am.  This tower is part of me and I am part of it.  I can’t explain it any other way.

I mentioned my tower for a reason.  This morning, I woke up to Sprinter.  Freezing temperatures and snow flurries.  I sat outside and reminisced.  The joy and sorrow.  The blessings and loss.  My tower.  My strength and endurance.

Memories flooded my mind.  Emotions ran the gamut.  My heart started to flutter on overdrive.  Then, I felt it stop.  Almost as if someone was clutching it in their hands.  Squeezing it so tightly that it could hardly beat.

I tried taking some deep breathes.  It didn’t work.  I turned to my daily devotional.  I received the perfect message.  I was reminded of who gives me my strength and endurance.  My God.

The tightness in my heart lessened.  I felt some relief.  While waiting for an appointment, I browsed the internet to pass the time.  I came across a quote from Lawrence Welk.  My Grandma used to love him.  He said:

Never trust anyone completely but God.

Love people, but put your trust only in God.

Wow!  This definitely got my attention.  Over the years, I’ve trusted a lot of people.  Some that I shouldn’t have.  One of my biggest regrets.  Geez Louise!  What was coming next?  Getting hit by a bus?

Driving home I heard the song by Danny Gokey called “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again”.  Then,  my epiphany.  My tower.  It is me.  It is my family.  It is my God.  It is my constant.  My rock.  I did get hit by a bus – figuratively.

Suddenly, my heart began to beat freely and effortlessly.  Everything in my life has been  guided by God’s love and grace.  He has been carrying me through my joy and sorrow, blessings and loss.  What a blessed reminder to “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again”!


Writers: Randy Phillips, Bernie Herms, Matthew West