Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial, because having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.James 1:12
I knew I wanted to write about a certain topic. I just didn’t know how to approach it without sounding ungrateful or unfaithful. I’m not sure any of you have felt like this. For me, it’s part of who I am, I guess. I have a habit of dwelling in the past adding a bit of worry about the future. I constantly have to remind myself to stay in the moment, in the day, in the now.
I thought how am I going to write about that. Well, it became easy when I heard Bart Millard of MercyMe’s testimony. We all have those days. The days that “suck”. The days when we doubt God is really listening. The days when we need mountains to move. The days when the mountains don’t move. When His time is not our own.
My worrying causes anxiety over things that are out of my control. Things that haven’t happened yet. Things that probably won’t happen. Things that are being protected by the hands of God. God protects us even when we don’t think He is. He is always with us. He always sees the challenges we face even the ones that “suck”.
This will sound funny to many of you. I’ve had an easier time dealing with the tangible more than the intangible. I’ve had cancer on and off for 25 years. I’m okay with that. It “sucks” but I don’t own it. I give it to God. It was easy. If I didn’t give it to God, I would have to own it and then, you know what, it would win.
Back to the intangible. My imagination. The things futile. The worry about the past and the future. The worry about what could have been and what may be. A total waste of precious time. It’s my struggle. It’s my inability to let go of certain circumstances in the past. It’s my imagination formulating a fictional future.
What saves me? Trust. Trust in God’s timing. Trust in God’s plan. Trust helps me forget the past. Trust erases my fictional future. My prayer for you is that when things “suck” or you are daydreaming of a fictional future, remind yourself to trust in God. There you will find peace.